Firefly Chronicles

怎么差别那么大？

2011-04-26T01:01:00.000-07:00

2011-03-13T01:29:00.000-08:00

p/s: My degree course is starting tomorrow! i wonder what will happen.

masalah dengan TFCD

2011-02-22T05:54:00.000-08:00

some people just have to understand that it's not my duty to do TFCD with u.. = = i'll try to arrange with u but i got no promise for the date and time because:

1. i'm busy
2. not everyone is born rich and have unlimited cash to buy nice clothes to wear for ur theme shooting
3. and many other personal reasons(bf dun allow, no transport, not interested..)

i do take TFCD requests but please, atleast ask me nicely can? dont make me feel like im obligated to do so. >< thanks for de cooperation.

2011-02-10T12:03:00.000-08:00

婆，我真的很想念您。。很想听您说您爱我，然后紧紧地把我抱在怀里。。

对不起婆。。你生前没有好好对你，还每次对您发脾气。希望您会原谅为我。

想不到你会那么快离开了我们。。我真的很不舍得你。。

我知道我已经永远失去你了。。很遗憾当初没有天天陪你谈天。。

我答应你我以后会好好照顾和珍惜家人，尤其是妈妈。

安息吧亲爱的婆婆。

我永远爱你。

2011-02-09T23:44:00.000-08:00

"It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and i need you now."

2010-11-18T20:26:00.000-08:00

2010-09-28T03:28:00.000-07:00

2010-09-17T00:35:00.000-07:00

photoshop practice with yagami chan

2010-09-09T01:26:00.000-07:00

long time no blog.. procrastination and laziness strikes me again. im actually impressed by people who can blogs regulary. =/

ok so i used yagamichan's photo to practice my photoshop skills the other day so i might as well share it with u people. =p

tadah!!

nice anot????

relax

2010-07-29T11:13:00.000-07:00

The time to relax is when you don't have time for it.

Wedding Dress

2010-07-14T09:32:00.000-07:00

im not a big fan of kpop like my sis, but i fell madly in love with this song-Wedding Dress by Taeyang ever since i heard it on tv. it's an awesome song though i couldn't understand the lyrics. my first guess was it's about a guy singing this song to his ex whom he still loves, and is getting married, to another guy.

and i was right. =p

i found two awesome english version of Wedding Dress on youtube just now and impressed by whoever that made it. one of it was by one of my fav youtube star-Kevin Liem. i think he's very talented!

very good voice and background music! i think i'm i love! =p

but nothing beats the other one by J. Reyez & Tommy C, whom i've never heard of btw. my tears are rolling in touch when i listened the lyrics.

Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.

2010-07-11T07:19:00.000-07:00

yay!

reasons im happy today:

-finally ate oyster after so many months!

-and fried chocolate ice-cream too!

-oh and did i mention japanese food yet?

-germany won last night

-skipped duty this morning and slept through it

-got my 2-way foundation <3

-watched 'Predators'

-going to body massage tomorrow to pamper myself

-and........i've finally let go of the pasts

“Some of us think holding on makes us strong, but sometimes it is letting go.”

so true.

by letting go, i've set myself free from the nightmares. lets face it, i'm not even that strong to begin with. so why bother to hang onto what has happened? i'm tired of holding grudges and thinking about what has happened and who's right or wrong all these while. it just don't get me anywhere. we learn from mistakes and life goes on and that's it.

so yeah. =)

=)

2010-07-10T03:59:00.000-07:00

“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'”

love..

2010-07-09T11:01:00.000-07:00

"Love is like grass. If you fall on it, it may leave a stain and some temporary pain. But you'll get over the pain, it will eventually stop hurting. Now maybe the stain ruined your favourite pair of jeans, or maybe it was nothing special that was ruined, but either way the stain remains there. And with time, it will begin to fade, but it will always be there, a permanent reminder that you, too, once fell."

Agent Arrie Ow from KGB

2010-07-07T02:29:00.000-07:00

KGB- Komitet gosudarstvennoy bezopasnosti

It was the national security agency of the Soviet Union from 1954 until 1991.

tomb raider for a day

2010-07-04T05:36:00.000-07:00

this shot is totally inspired by angelina jolie from salt's poster! lol.

the new set of photos was taken a few weeks ago. i was told that the theme is "tomb raider" and everything went well and i'm very happy working with so many photographers who're all nice and friendly people. =) i'm pretty amazed by the outcome and it's a fantastic experience posing with real guns. anyway, enjoy the photos!

there were more photos but it'll take forever to upload them. so, yeah. =p

YOU SEE

2010-06-13T07:24:00.000-07:00

i am really reaaaally sorry that i cant be the girl of ur dream. well maybe i am but only in ur worst nightmares. =x

i lost my temper today. again. but have u ever taken into considerations of the factors WHY i did? i'll give u a clue.
what do i hate most in the world??

i dont expect u to know why, because u dont understand me. yes! you dont. everytime before u make any decision, i just cross my fingers and pray that u'll stand in my feet and think for me. but my prayers evaporated everytime when u started to go on of ur own selfish beliefs.

i do admit im a nice girl *buay paisehnye* but i get out of control everytime when someone pulls that trigger of me.

do u still remember how vulnerable and weak when u just knew me? maybe that's probally why u feel in love with me and i've just proven another myth of the century, that ALL MEN LIKE WEAK WOMEN.
but then, as time goes by, i've been polish by everyday's obstacle and hve turned into someone who knows to defend myself, someone who will stand firm on her beliefs no matter what, and someone who will fight back when she is being threaten.

ISN'T THAT A GOOD THING?

that im independent by myself, which u have always wanted me to become all these while? if u're not going to protect me anymore, i will do it by myself.
and what is it exactly that u're still not satisfy in me? trust me, i've been trying really really hard to surpress my anger and temper because of u. i just want u to have a better girlfriend but it seems that my efforts are futile.

i know u're avoiding me after all that i've done, but if someday, SOMEDAY where u find urself to miss me like last time, remember one thing, i didn't walk away, u left me.

哭了，谁还会心疼？累了，谁会让我依靠？

2010-05-29T11:31:00.000-07:00

朋友那么多，知心的却很少
过客那么多，记住的却很少
没有人知道我的难过，没有人知道我的失落，没有人知道我

的无助，没有人知道我的寂寞，没有人知道我的不开心，没有人知道我的不可乐，没有人懂我理解我心疼我！
如果有一天，我因为某件事而哭泣，有人会关心会心疼吗？又有谁会给我肩膀让我依靠？又有谁会理解我心里的伤痛？
如果有一天，我因为你而哭泣，你会怎么想怎么做？
如果有一天，我在你的面前哭泣，你还会不会紧紧抱着我？为我擦干眼泪？让我坚强？让我可以不孤单？
不知道从什么时候开始，我也开始变的感伤，只知道：我活得好累，身边的人，身边的事，有时候真的无法去面对，每天都重复着同样的生活，有了一定的规律
...枯燥...
...乏味...
...郁闷...
...伤心...
...无奈...
...难过...
...感伤...
我也常常一个人来来往往，不知道什么时候，我也习惯了一个人，喜欢一个人独处的感觉，不知是时间变了，还是：自己变了
不知道什么时候开始，我也爱上了安静，喜欢上了寂寞，也许，我一直认为我是一个坚强的人，但是现实中的我却没有自己想象的那么坚强。如今，我喜欢把泪藏在心底，不让别人看见，我要微笑的去面对任何一件事，就算那笑有多少的虚伪
有时候突然从梦中醒来，不知为何有种想哭的感觉，一切都是那么的某明奇妙，一切都变得让我感到那么的压抑
身边的人来了又走了，只有我一个人留在原地，我找不到属于自己的方向，多么希望我的下一站是幸福，可是我却找不到任何出路
我埋着头，感受身边人身上谈谈的味道，为什么都带着谈谈的忧伤？我希望生活可以变的简单，让我可以不那么累？
但是现在的生活也并不复杂，为什么还是让我讨厌？内心很脆弱，便面很坚强，面对身边的是是非非，我只有保持沉默，心里好难受，好压抑，好苦，好痛，好累...觉得心里好委屈，拼什么你要这样对我？
总是告诉自己要坚强，可是眼泪却不争气，每次想你的时候，心里有说不出的滋味，幸福并心痛着，快乐并心酸着，觉得自己好堕落，好无能，好没用，真的好想逃避这样的生活，想要离开，想要解脱
我过得并不快乐，更不幸福，不是我不知足，我拼命的想幸福，可是幸福却离我越来越遥远。我好想留住你，好想陪在你身边，我一直在努力不让自己失去你，可是到最后，我们还是要分离。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

sneak preview of the lastest outdoor shooting.. more to come soon!

2010-05-26T01:58:00.001-07:00

photoshooting 1

2010-05-08T19:07:00.000-07:00

2010-04-25T07:05:00.000-07:00

原来爱情，只是说出口而已的。。一切的一切都只不过是美丽谎言。

我，是时候醒来了。。

蒲公英

2010-04-21T03:40:00.000-07:00

刚发了一个梦，梦见了自己和心爱的人吵架后，想跑出去冷静下时，就被大风吹上天空了。

我很努力得挣扎，可是身体已不被我受控制。

可恶的风，把我越吹越高，越吹越远。

我很害怕会把我吹到一个我回不到家的地方，回不到去见心爱的人，过开心的日子。。

流着眼泪，一直拼命的挣扎。我要回去我要回去了！！

可是当我停止了挣扎，我发现其实这种感觉也还不错。

可以在天空中飘浮，享受那种无比自由。

把眼睛关上，然后再打开，有一种神秘的感觉。因为没有人知道我会几时降落，降落到哪里。

另一边的世界，则在等待欢迎着我的到来。

而被吹走了，我就不用面对问题了。以前的争吵和烦恼，就可以把它全部忘掉。。

等待降落的时刻，等待从新开始的一天。

我满怀期待的。。

醒来后，我发现我在梦里就像一个蒲公英。。。

。。。而在现实生活里，我，根本就是一朵蒲公英。

2010-04-11T09:24:00.000-07:00

原来曾经那么相爱过的两个人，在分手后也会变回像陌生人的。

无助？？

2010-04-06T08:53:00.000-07:00

一段爱情的结束，代表着另一段爱情的开始。

我也许会很寂寞，可是生活还是得过。太阳依然会升起，世界不会为了我而停下来。

只能让时间慢慢地把回忆冲淡。。

我真心祝福你，希望你也能够祝福我，让彼此不会再在爱情长跑的路上受伤害。

我怀念的

2010-04-01T10:22:00.000-07:00

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

谁记得?

谁忘了?

xoxo

Pet Society is finally in 3D!! screams

2010-03-31T10:24:00.000-07:00

OMG CAN U BELIEVE IT????!!!! Playfish actually listened to me for ONCE to finally make PS in 3D!!!

3months ago i've requested for it and today, I GOT IT!!

This is the most awesome thing ever happened to me in 20years. SERIOUSLY!!!

i login to my account a few minutes ago and saw a new 3D mode tab added below!!

click on it and this permission box will appear. the wait for it to load for a few seconds and YOUR ENTIRE PET SOCIETY SCREEN WILL BE IN 3D MODE!!

HOW AWESOME AND COOL IS THAT HUH??!!

i seriously can't stop smiling now! Thanks to Playfish for making my dream come true! I <3 you all!! *flying kisses*

P/S:Login to your pet society account NOW and see it for yourself!! I'm not going to spoil it here for u. =)

Individual Portrait

2010-03-05T01:35:00.000-08:00

twenties girl

2010-02-05T20:39:00.000-08:00

helo peeps! i got my day off from work today, suffering from mild headache.

i love staying at home and indulge myself with Sophie Kinsella's masterpieces. <3
i'll have to admit, this one is the best from her so far. others were very good, but this one is just too awesome.

i'm sooo depressed!!

2010-01-31T18:41:00.000-08:00

photos here doesnt justfy my depression though.

im so emo as valentine's day is just around the corner. *sigh*

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2010-01-20T20:01:00.000-08:00

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i want my wedding dress to look like this

2010-01-20T07:38:00.000-08:00

"cause we were both young when i first saw u.."

stupid ulcers

2010-01-17T18:34:00.000-08:00

can u spot them?

it started with one ulcer and it evolved into two after few days. *laughs*

why my nails always break one grrrr

2010-01-15T20:31:00.000-08:00

o hai all.

i arrived my company at 11.05am this morning. that's 5 mins late because i went to collect my parcel of beauty products. <3 i tried on the nu bra that i've ordered in my car(yes!) and it feels so funny. im very worried that it might fell off but to my surprise, it wouldnt no matter how hard i jump.

so it's 12.36 noon now, and i hasnt done anything yet. i came here, set up my laptop and farming in farmville and decorate my pet society till now.

it's been a slow day. i hasnt even talked to anyone else here. i just feel a surge of unmotivated energy in me. yesterday's work has worn me out. my muscles cramp like mad when i was trying to sleep last night. yesterday has not been a good one.

and i doubt that it will be one today. accidentally cut my hands a few times and the worst is i broke my fingernail, the thumb one. it tooks me atleast two months to grow to this length.

im seriously considering acrylic nails now.
.............

sexual harassment at facebook chat

2010-01-13T10:21:00.000-08:00

Desmond

i will use your picture for tonight

02:13Arrie Ow

for tonight wha

what

02:15Desmond

nola every niight before i sleep i will masturbate looking at womens pic, so tonight i will look at yours. It makes me feel like making love with you, and when my sperm shoots out the feeling of statisfaction

some more the white shirt can see a bit of ur breast

wow

u gals cleaver to make us men horny by looking ur pic only

wow the beach photo also nice

i think i eetter start masturbating now

i feel like sucking ur nipples

ur breast is so big and firm

wow the pic in car is even better can see ur breast clearly

u'll never guess it..

2010-01-09T02:21:00.000-08:00

sigh..

2010-01-05T16:11:00.001-08:00

i wish i were born in a more ______ country.

new year reso reso

2010-01-04T07:12:00.000-08:00

1. read 100 books
2. give up swearing
3. finally getting my driving license

this is why i hate facebook

2009-12-28T01:52:00.000-08:00

yesterday evening while i was doing some photoshopping works, someone invaded my facebook chat.

David:
hi
hi arrie ow

Arrie:
hi
who r u

David:
i am new
i am hearing impaired

Arrie:
wad u are new

David:
i am new persong to u

Arrie:
wad is persong

David:
person
you are cute and pretty girl

Arrie:
ic thx

David:
welcome
thak for add me

Arrie:
i didnt add u
u add me

David:
yes
yes i add u
are you working

Arrie:
no

David:
are you student?

Arrie:
no

David:
are you freedom?

Arrie:
no

David:
what are you doing at home?

Arrie:
nothing much

David:
you chat with someone

Arrie:
yes

.............................

SERIOUSLY?!!!!

i dun even get what he's toking about. what i added him what hearing impaired? and why is he so interested in what am i doing anyway. = = if i was in a bad mood yesterday he would have kena from me ady. yala u must be thinking i am sooo mean to bully a handicap and whatever in ur filthy mind la i dun wanna know okkkkk

AND today, i received some random msgs from him. = =

*click to enlarge dun so lazy*

and leaving me comments in my photo album.

what the XXXX do u want from me?

p/s: i just checked, he has removed me from his fren list.

what the fuck?!!! damn dulan ppl like this one. added me in the first place then delete me. irritating

Arrie in wonderland

2009-12-05T13:09:00.000-08:00

omgomgomgomg where should i begin???

when i was just a little girl in kindergarden, my mom recorded on tape one of the best cartoon in the world that is packed full of fun and surprises- Alice in Wonderland, which i can probably say it's the smartest thing she has done for 40years.

i still remember that i used to play it every single day(ok i exaggerated because there were other great cartoons too) while sitting on the sofa eating oranges and spend hours of watching it and my life doesn't even get bored after years of watching the same cartoon. awwww i miss those days!!
but then a few years ago my papa threw away all those tapes as we were all grown up and the old technology has replaced with vcds and dvds. i was really upset that he threw all my childhood memories away but then i forgot about it pretty fast too as i was distracted by RO and boys. XD

however, this is not the main point of my post!

a few minutes ago, i stumbled across these beautiful movie posters and i immediately have tears in my eyes.

omg is this real?

first of all, Alice is coming to town on next year's march to bring me into her wonderland!

secondly, it has everything that i love! beautiful makeups, fancy costumes, funny cartoon characters in real humans, colorful places, interesting story plot and johnny depp!

thirdly, doesn't this just brings back wonderful memories?? by looking at these posters, my memory flashes back as i try to figure out which of them is who that I've watched in the cartoon. suddenly more and more memories of the story are coming into my head.

these character came alive once again in my mind after over 10 good years.

where have u guys been, Alice, Cheshire cat(i still hate ur smile it creeps me out), red queen and white queen, dodo, mad hatter, flowers who talk, rabbit and jabberwock? i missed u all alot!! please bring me back to being a little girl again because my life being a 19-year-old just simply sucks!!!!

i really cant believe how much I've grew. it feels just like yesterday that i was 9. I'm a completely different person as i am now but the memories of these cartoons stay in my heart forever. <3

anyway watch the awesome trailer here. the movie is in 3D too omgomg.

..............

as usual, my Pet Society room is redecorated every week with new items in store. and last week it was christmas and' alice in wonderland's themed items in store. coincidence??

decorated by my sister. i rate it 2.5/5 because it feels so wrong(look at where the arrows are pointing to) and the design is too mediocre. hello sis??!!! u otak senget ady arr?!!
my pet is also dressing up nicely with pretty outfits of the characters too.

Alice, obviously. i added the wings because i feel like it.

Queen of Hearts. hair looks like the queen in the trailer too!

swan princess. this is not from Alice in Wonderland la but i decided to show u anyway since it's last week's new items and it looks chio.

actually i have two sets of the all the outfits above because my sister bought it in the morning without telling me and i login in the noon and i quickly bought everything without even checking once i see them because my mind is screaming to me "i want it all!!". Xp *laughs*

p/s: we didnt bought that mad hatter oufits because it is for boys(actually it's damn ugly la i dun deny) and our pet has a vajayjay. so, ehems.

hot la!!

2009-11-29T11:04:00.000-08:00

I cant believe i'm praying for rain now. the weather is unbearable! and my fucking room is so mad hot. living room is cool but not my room!! it's like all de hot air are trapped inside and no matter what i do it's still so hot!!

my lips are chapped and my hairs are so dry. every second i'm breathing hot air that it feels like burning my throat no kidding lor! And I wish i could just stop SWEATING but i cant!

god, please listen to my prayer will ya? i just want a good night of sleep. amen.

Elianto + 1Malaysia=awesome marketing plan??

2009-11-24T19:36:00.000-08:00

picture credit to beauty guru-guru

Someone please tell me what on earth does Elianto has to do with 1Malaysia.
But awesome marketing plan i must say.

The sales assistant told me their products are made from Korea but my friend who is a MUA said it is made from Malaysia.

so last wednesday, i went to Gurney to catch 2012 which i failed to buy the tickets because they were all full, i bumped into Elianto and saw this promotion.
RM1 for a nail polish?!!! imagine if u buy 10 and u only pay for rm10.
thats almost de price for a bottle of Skin Food Nail Vita. so i actually managed to get 4 bottles(even if i dun like the color, i can always give it as a present for frens). and the color is QUITE NICE!

Elianto Nail polish @ RM1 per bottle, Valid from
13 Nov - 26 Nov -- Promo colour = Platinum Pearl (Whitish silver)
27 Nov - 10 Dec -- Promo colour = Silky Brown (Dark Bronze)
11 Dec - 24 Dec -- Promo colour = Twilight Zone (Deep Purple)
25 Dec - 7 Jan 10 -- Promo colour =Thistle (Sweet Pink)

So check out the Elianto counter now! The rules is one person is only allowed to buy 2 bottles max.
BTW i am required to fill in a form provided with personal informations. =)

Im madly in love with the Elianto Nail Lauquer in Glitter Bronze(RM10). So pretty la can. Can definitely wear it to clubbing and dance all night with it. It has tiny glitter flakes and a two-coat should works just fine because the formula is awesome. Not too runny not too thick. All the colours from the Glitter series are very interesting. i think someday i'm gonna get them all. <3

there are beautiful flowers and leaves fallen all over here in Penang. I wondered why. Maybe it's the autumn season(despite the fact that it is already officially winter)? But i thought Malaysia have summer all year long.

Funny Sperms!

2009-11-24T10:30:00.000-08:00

朋友与人性的丑恶

2009-11-23T20:58:00.001-08:00

*first of all, if u have a Facebook account, please support me by clicking "Like" to my photo here. thanks！*

自从我从旧宿舍（没错，就是villa damai）搬出来后，我的性格就变得保守，不想参人去。整天只会锁自己在房间里。老实说，我搬来现在这里住了那么久（大概半年），可是却没有跟过这里的housemate一起吃饭超过10次。

因为我看清楚了人性丑陋的一面。

“人之初，性本善。”你真的那么认为吗？对我来说，一些人天生就是那么坏，从一开始就不怀好心肠，再加上因在社会所接触到的人的影响，就变了恶魔去。

在现实生活中有很多人喜欢跟朋友玩心眼，喜欢利用朋友，他们认为朋友不是用来依靠的，而是用来利用的。

他们这中心态导致他们，自私自利，唯利是图。

这种人在我旧宿舍可见得多了。

所以我也不想交那么多朋友，我宁愿自己一个人，来保护自己的私隐和安全。

从前，我有2位很要好的朋友，他们俩的感情很好，而且也手牵手陪伴了对方走了很多甜酸苦辣的日子。可是好景不常在，他们最后也为了一些误会而反面了。既然都不是朋友的，我认为也没有必要变成敌人。

可是。。分手过后就开始互相残杀，为了争朋友而做出一些我看了都想吐的东西。

有必要吗？

以下也是本人所在宿舍认识到的人的性格。他们都很sohai下。

-自称“大家姐”，喜欢boycott和欺负人。以为自己很淋yeng可是我看了觉得很狗。
-吝啬又喜欢花人家钱的人。hello？！！我几时做了你们的atm机器？！
-喜欢tumpang glamour的人。意思就是说喜欢参跟比较受欢迎的人来配合人家。很喜欢利用人的一群。跟屁狗。
-喜欢破坏人家感情的人。最dulan的。
-喜欢show off的可是又没有料。
-hiao po。不是普通打扮自己那种，而是很喜欢男人的那种。喜欢跟自己姐妹争男人。
-鸡婆的人。8到。。。。连我屁股生苍也有兴趣的那种。
-假人。他们觉得如果你不虚伪，如果你不这样做，你就会遭到世人的漫骂与捶弃，要知道口水也会淹死人的。所以他们对朋友就那么假。
-喜欢比较的人。唉！
-还有很多很多。。

就是因为这些人，我才产生了对这个社会的恐惧感。

所以，亲爱的，要是你爱我的话，请你不要逼我去参人了。那些不是人来的。。

sick

2009-11-21T09:17:00.000-08:00

currently down with flu and mild fever. i've been eating panadols for the past 12 hours but the situation seemed to worsen. hope things will get better soon.

if it doesnt, that means i must be having swine flu wtf.

i just checked for the symtoms:

fever, which is usually high, but unlike seasonal flu, is sometimes absent
cough
runny nose or stuffy nose
sore throat
body aches
headache
chills
fatigue or tiredness, which can be extreme
diarrhea and vomiting, sometimes, but more commonly seen than with seasonal flu

im suffering from severe runny nose and i cant stop sneezing la.

i cant wait to leave and never be back here again yaaahooo!!!

2009-11-20T21:46:00.000-08:00

cant wait to spend time with my sister and hamsters again. but first i have to complete ALL of my final assignments and prepare for my final exam. which is a real pain in the ass.

just hack until 76level in happy pets LOL. i dont seem to have the patience to brush my pets everyday to gain just a tiny amount of exp. and it's by demand of my sister.

wanted to put my blog as "private" but then my traffic will decrease like mad. when it decrease like mad i will have no income. when i have no income i will be poor. when i am poor i will become unhappy. when i become unhappy i will stop eating. when i stop eating i will become sick. when i become sick i will die. when i die my frenz have to pay "white gold" which is unaffordable and it will add a heavy financial burden to them since they're still a student. so what im doing now is actually for my FRIENDS! ^o^

爱情不在了。。

2009-11-20T09:04:00.000-08:00

2009-11-20T00:47:00.001-08:00

went to toby's pet shop with Shaleni to stock up supplies for my hammies.

went to the concert few days ago.

by the way i lost all de pics i wanna upload bcoz i stupidly accidently deleted all my photos in my memory card. lan jiao.

Dating tips for the opposite of vagina.

2009-11-14T09:52:00.000-08:00

interesting headline right? something i ACTUALLY learn from class LOL.

k let's begin.

Guys, girls are just like cars.

A car only has 3 attributes where you can only choose two max.

Cheap. Reliable. Fast.

1.Cheap and Reliable: Kancil is cheap but yet reliable. Can fetch whole family of 5 at one time and it is only 20k at cheapest.

2. Fast and Cheap: Own modified Proton Wira with a Myvi engine. It is fast but definitely not reliable right? Imagine if the engine explode for whatever fuck reason while u're driving.

3: Fast and Reliable: Ferrari is definitely not cheap loh, don't need to say much.

Girls also have 3 attributes too where u can only choose two max!

Nice. Hot. Smart.

1. Nice and Smart: the BEST of all groups(you'll agree with me later). she wil treat you good, gives you blowjob and can help u do all ur homeworks. perfect marriage material and they're plenty of them in the world(i've checked, they're more ugly girls than pretty girls in the universe. abo y do u think they have beauty pageants?)

2. Nice and Hot: worse than the first group but better than the last. here's why. they make u wanna stay. ur heart melts when u see them for the first time. BUT, although it may be fun at the beginning, one day, she might embarrass u by saying something like that(click on it, mad funny!!). u don't wanna lose face at crowds don't u? REMEMBER, look is not everything.

3. Hot and Smart: lastly, these are just the type u shouldnt be dating because they are used to getting whatever they want. usually they're hot, so things are just given to them. then, if not, they're smart, they know how to get it for themselves. this is the rarest type thus hardest to get. even if u got them, they will kill u. unless u kill them first la.

here are two tips for u. guys

1. if your girlfriend suddenly ask u "which 2 am i?"

REMEMBER DON'T ANSWER IT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES BECAUSE IT IS A TRAP!!

there is no correct answer to the question!! seriously. if u choose either two then u will be hearing "why i'm not HOT/SMART/NICE??" everytime until the day u die. no kidding because we girls are shameless like that hahahahaha.

2. Okay. so I lied. there are actually a combination that goes Cheap. Reliable. Fast. and
Nice. Hot. Smart.

Don't believe me? click here to unveil the answer for the first combination.
=p

AND, there is a girl out there who is nice, hot and smart. the day u find her is the day u have to convince your parents to marry her. =)

P/S: i've asked William just before i typed this out whether which two am i, and to my pleasant, he paused for like 10seconds(which is probably the longest 1osecs in my entire life) and said Hot and Smart.

Who cares about being nice nowadays anyway huh?!

LOL i'm just kidding. =)

2009-11-13T01:37:00.000-08:00

i'm in a fucking bad mood right now. everything just seems to piss me off so much.

it started when my chaohai laptop suddenly becoming mad slow. kenot multi task, this kenot that kenot. then my mouse suddenly went dead.

i change to another mouse i have long ago and guess what, the fucking scroll is not bloody working, that means i kenot even photoshop now!!!!!! and my handphone, it jams a few times when i was trying to sms!!! so irritating la can?!!!!

then i couldn't stop swearing and blaming.

i blame my daddy because he doesn't buy me a new laptop and phone.

the fucking hot weather that makes me sweat.

my sister because i was starving myself just to buy her a bloody handphone.

my bf because he messed up with my laptop.

that chao hai bitch who kept yelling none stop outside.

my fucking housemates that always acted like they've never seen a pair of tities before.

every single third party in a relationship(this is random).

my lecturer who makes me sooooooo stressed out.

no matter what i do or see, everything seems to tick me off so much!!!!
i hate pms!!!!!!1

Food Review: Campell’s Wild Mushroom Instant Soup

2009-11-13T00:31:00.001-08:00

I'm a big fan of instant soup especially Campell's. They've recently add a new member to their family, which is the Wild Mushroom Soup Pack.

I love the normal Mushroom Soup so I've decided to give the new one a try.

To me the difference is not that obvious. The wild one is tastier though. The normal one is creamier.

I bought 3 boxes which consist of 2 boxes of the normal and one box of the wild one for RM9.90. It comes with a free cute mini notebook.

2009-11-10T01:52:00.000-08:00

hurt someone's feeling today. feels mad guilty about it. why do i always jeopardize my relationships with frenz???

come to think about it, i'm not even in a position to call someone short.

i know how it feels to be undermined. like when someone call me "flat boobs" or "explosive hair".

ahhhhh sucks.

Blogging with Microsoft Words!

2009-11-03T05:13:00.001-08:00

I was preparing for my mass media and Malaysian studies presentation tomorrow where I wanted to open a new words document to write down what I will be presenting. I clicked NEW and to my delight, there are two options, Blank document or New Blog Post(BLOGGING USING MS WORDS?!! OMG THIS IS GOING TO BE GREA!!T). I clicked on de second one, connected to blogger, login, choose my blog and ta-dah!!

I can blog with ms words now!

Isn't that cool?

I think it's gonna save more time to spend on blogging.

Ok I try publish first see can anot byex

random photos to share 2

2009-10-23T07:24:00.000-07:00

random photos to share

2009-10-23T00:24:00.000-07:00

some prizes i won from INUOVI long time ago

love the bronzer

maybe i rely on makeup to look pretty. hmm..

2009-10-20T02:22:00.000-07:00

omg life is sure hectic! i went back to Ipoh last week for my sem break, which was cool, get to see my loved ones and worked two days for Shokubutsu shampoo in Jusco Kinta City and it's my first time wearing a Yukata as their uniform..

and i hated it.

it's beautiful, it's cute though.

but it;s friggin hot and troublesome and the same time. it fell off so easily no matter how tight i tie it. how can those ancient japanese girls wear it all the time one har and not even complain once in their life?

psst i think they do complain, if not why screaming "yameteh(which means don't want or no)" every night?

LOLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!

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ok not funny. fine.

so i was tag by Jean for two awards,thanks!! and here goes

Hottest Female Blogger Award

Qs and As here!! =D

1. What books are on your favorite shelf? i love novels like the shopaholic series.

2. What DVDs are on your favorite shelf?
i don't buy pirated DVDs and i cant afford a genuine one. eveb if i do i would rather spend them on makeups. i prefer the cinema.

3. What are your two favorite cookbooks?
Confinement's recipe book!! the foods are awesome.
Jamie Oliver's?? he's cute with the accent.

4. Select 1-3 recipes you will cook for your special guests.
butter grill salmon, seafood soup

5. What will we be drinking that's available?
mango coconut milkshake

next up!

The Gorgeous Blogger Award

Okay , the rule of the game:

State 6 facts about yourself
Pass the award on to 6 other bloggers

6 Facts About Me

1) I don't drink coffee. it makes me dizzy. ewww
2) I'm left handed.
3) I'm so hooked up on Pet Society.
4) I can do this
and somethin like this

EASILY.(two feet touching my head from the back)

but not this loh. i also don't why. the best i did was until the length of my knee(Seriously!). SIGH

5)i don't kill animals. not even an ant. it's TOOOOOOOO cruel.
6)i rely of hair rebondingl. my real hair sucks.

ok i dun wanna blog anymore. bye

yummy dog treat for my hammies!

2009-10-07T20:40:00.000-07:00

after so many complains by my sister that my hammies has bitten her, i've finally bought this treat for my hammies.

according to this article, it mentioned "Place some hard dog treats inside of your hamsters cage so that he has something productive to bite on. Dog treats are full of vitamins and minerals your hamster needs, are silent when chewed and will help to relieve your hamsters instinctive need to chew."

i've tried to break these with my fingernails and they're extremely hard! i might worry that the hamster's teeth is too tiny to chew on something that hard. but Wil told me that if they can bite their cage made from plastic and metal, then nothing is impossible.

btw i think it's gonna takes forever for them to finish the whole packet. lol

i feed my hammies expensive premium muesli!

2009-10-04T22:02:00.000-07:00

for those who don't knows what muesli is, click here LOL.

it's a healthy human food(DUH). u can mix dried muesli with milk, fruits and vegetables juice for ur breakfast.
750g of muesli

the ingredients included:

rolled oats, wheat bran, dried fruits 30%(sultanas, paw-paw, sliced dates, pineapple, raisins, currants, banana chips -honey-, diced apple, diced apricot, nectarine, peach)

mad healthy.

however, like the title says, it's for my hammies.

yep, they totally deserve to be pamper by me for being such a cute pet. <3

i love you Cookie and Vanilla! bring more babies come and i'll shower u with my love!

Adidas Natural Vitality=DKNY be delicious fresh blossom?

2009-09-10T22:06:00.000-07:00

the title is my biggest finding in these few months.

this is Adidas Natural Vitality.

This is DKNY be delicious fresh blossom that i received as my birthday pressie a month ago.
latest perfume by DKNY that released on Spring 2009. i love how fresh and soothing it smells.

lol, i haven't even started using my new DKNY because it's too precious for me. =))

actually there's a story within this finding. after few months of searching perfume for my bf, i ended up with two choice, Hugo by Hugo Boss, and an Adidas that i don't even remember its name now lol.

a few nights ago, i had a dream that i saw myself buying Adidas Pure Lightness. see what u dream is actually somehow connected to what happen in daily life.

i woke up the next day and im so determined to buy Adidas Pure Lightness after i saw this Guardian advertisment that it's only selling for RM19.90!!

it's something i've wanted for a long while ago ever since i have a test on it 2 years ago in PJ when i was working there.

it resembles alot like the blue ralph lauren perfume, Ralph by Ralph Lauren. very sweet and feminine. they almost smells like the same. Adidas makes very good branded dupes.

so i went to Guardian and happily bought Pure Lightness. me and bf happily walk around in Gurney and we went to an Adidas retail store to check out the perfumes. and then i saw Natural Vitality. it's new to the Adidas woman perfume family, so i guess that's why there're no tester unit in Guardian.
i spray the juice on my finger and when i have a sniff of it, it smells EXACTLY like DKNY Be Delicious Fresh Blossom!!
i immediately knew this is what i want and rush to Guardian store to do the exchange.

so that's the 'love at first sight' story of how i met Adidas Natural Vitality.

i believe, every perfume of yours should own a very special place in your heart. wink*

psst.. but now i have 2 perfumes that smells the same. = =

i must say, im not as strong as i used to be.

2009-09-05T09:08:00.000-07:00

good night blogsphere~

Sushi King Big Bowl Challenge

2009-09-03T08:12:00.000-07:00

i am very very tempted to join this. the rule here is to finish a very hot and big bowl of udon/ramen in 10 mins, then u can have it for free. otherwise u have to fork out rm40.
the staff told me that it's equivalent to 4 regular bowl of udon mee with 1.4litre of freaking hot soup!!

i don't have enough courage to try that yet. though i am very confident that i can finish it in 30mins. i think i'll try to make my own big bowl and try it at home first. like.. 4packets of maggi mee and one big bottle of soup. or abc soup with spaghetti(i've tried it and it's very good!).

anyway this is what we had for our dinner there. curry soup with rice. taste somewhat like mamak's curry. = =

i dunno what it's called. ramen bla bla bla.

the big bowl promotion ends this month btw!

avene thermal spring water.. good stuff

2009-08-17T13:17:00.000-07:00

it's 4.45 in the morning now and im still wide awake. fucking annoying. out of boredom, me and chelle, who was also suffering from a sleepless night decided to try a DIY mask introduced to her by SASA SA.

Avene Thermal Spring Water 300ml (RM50), Avene Soothing Moisture(RM70-80), plain mask sheets(RM6.90 for 10)

first of all, we apply a thick layer of Avene Soothing Moisture Mask after spraying Avene Spring Water to our face.

then, we sprayed the plain paper mask sheet with the thermal spring water and put it on. i have to say it consume quite alot of spring water to completely wet one sheet mask.

it wasn't long before the whole paper mask dry off. i'd say in about 10 minutes? so we have to keep spraying the spring water every 2 mins.

initially we thought that this would does nothing at all as we've tried the soothing mask alone and there is no result seen. however, we got the biggest jaw-dropped once we took off the mask sheet.

we are really really fair!!
our skin become porcelain white and hydrated!!

before the mask my face is super yellowish and oily one.

overall, we were amazed by the instant brightening and whitening effect. thumbs up*

this is what i'd call a good mask.

though i still don't understand why mixing both of the avene product works like miracle. XD

inspired photoshop work

2009-08-11T08:32:00.000-07:00

i just created it. it's one of the photos taken in estee lauder model search last year.

yea.. it's inspired by this. i love this song.

actually i did the teardrop crystal thingy but it just doesn't look realistic so i deleted it. hahahaa

2009-08-06T22:50:00.000-07:00

i'm back in Ipoh since last week and life is so easy everyday.. Ahh.. woke up with no stress, and there's nothing else better to do for me other than youtubing, hacking Country Story(the latest game by Playfish), checking beauty blogs, put on load of masks and more eating and sleeping.

etude house is my new love now. i shop like mad this week. it's pure happiness to add more stuffs to my makeup and skin care collection. i think it's a rather healthy hobby. i almost bought all of their brushes and i'm just so in love with the duo fibre brush! it creates a very beautiful and professionally done airbrush effect when it's use to apply liquid foundation. however i find it very wasteful as it consume alot of foundation.

anyway MAC Select foundation is ridiculous. it doesn't last long and the coverage is too light even after applying 3 layers. what is worse is that it causes breakouts to my skin! i've been living with no pimples ever since one year ago(thanks to cellnique pro sebum gel!!!!). nothing causes breakouts to my skin, not even the harsh environment and weather, or the oily foods i ate. i don't believe in MAC anymore. so regret of buying that. i think i'll just stick back to my Revlon softlex.

this is one interesting article i've come across.

"Some consumers don’t mind buying a fake - a fake Chanel purse from Hong Kong, for instance, can still cost quite a few hundred dollars and be incredibly difficult to tell apart from the real thing (the real one, however, would probably cost at least a couple of thousand, would be better quality, AND it would be legal). But after all, one can justify to oneself, those huge brands have such criminal markups, the money is only going to fill the coffers of their marketing departments and company executives, and why shouldn’t I enjoy the prestige of carrying around a Chanel purse if I can do it for $400 instead of $2,000, and no-one but me is going to know the difference? Well whatever you may think of those arguments, theft is theft, and karma, God, or your conscience will get you in the end. "

my shopping arrives!!!

2009-07-29T02:16:00.000-07:00

arrived on last sunday to be precise.

i love paper masks! gonna do all of them as soon as i finish my exam. <3

stupidity is not art. but who cares?

2009-07-28T20:20:00.000-07:00

all the photos below were shot in a very low ISO mode(about 80) when i was on my way back to Penang last Sunday.

gasp!* it's so artistic!

i've seen alot of bloggers posted up blur, meaningless and random photos on their blog and call it art. it's like the IN thing to do now. it looks kinda cool too so im doing it also. LOL

so what do u think about my artistic photographs?

before u make ur judgement, let me show u the most expensive paint in the world, No. 5, 1948, by Jackson Pollock which adjusted price is more than $149.6 million.

wow

after convertion, i think it worth more than half a billion in RM.

GSC free ticket and i cant wait to watch so many movies!

2009-07-28T02:01:00.000-07:00

i checked my mail today and saw...

this!

omg gsc gimme free movie ticket on behalf of my birthday in august!!

here are some upcoming movies that i've been aching to watch.

trailer looks cute. but it's only coming to cinema in august.

omg gorgeous gerald gerry butler. he has to be handsome, dazzling man i've seen!
but i've wait til October to watch him. aww

i have a feeling that this movie is great. will be release 0n 30th of July.

also release 0n 30th of July. cannot wait already la!

i love watching romance movies.

i think i'll stay a little longer in Penang after my exam on Friday just to watch more movies. Ipoh's cinema doesnt have alot of movies because it's small.(they don't even have CONFESSION OF A SHOPAHOLIC HOR NOW ARE U KIDDING ME?!!!) gurney GSC is the best!! that's one of the thing i love about Penang.

i hate watching pirated vcds/dvds/tudou.com at home because the quality sucks like mad and i dont have any high end hi-fi system and a 200-inch screen.

can u tell me what's the point of watching a movie where it's going to be vague, poor sounding, watching ur favourite actor has black dots everywhere on his face/body, and miss it when the movie is at the climax because it freezed there for whatever reason????

it makes me so fucking frustrated that i swear on my face that i'll never ever ever watch a pirated again!!!

i hate those cheapskates that buy pirated discs at Batu Ferringhi, BJ court. it's one of the CHEAPEST thing a person can do, seriously. if ur reason is to save $, then GO ROT IN HELL. it's only RM6 on wednesday for x's sake!

and they have student price, early bird price, last minute price...and u're still willing to spend rm5 on a fucking pirated disk that does nothing than getting on people nerves when watch?!!
i seriously don't fathom how people can watch pirated disks for all their life and not get pissed off for the quality.

maybe there're used to living CHEAP.

that's the only explanation.

if cannot afford original DVD or cinema ticket then dont watch la. it's like buying a replica LV when u cant afford the real thing. i really despise those people alot.

amc canteen day 2009

2009-07-27T01:56:00.000-07:00

went back Ipoh last week for my study week and attended amc canteen day.
honestly i didnt studied much.

on my way to canteen day.

i wanted to get one, but sis doesn allowed

sis in her stall.

little handmade keychain

things there is rather expensive, RM4 for one drumstick and rm3 for a cup of soft drink. =/

sis class's stall banner

love their cheese tart alot! i think i had more than 10.

now this banner looks familiar.. im sure it's inspired by 8tv. lol

we didnt managed to go into the haunted house because it's rather late already when we arrived and the queue is insane. have to wait for a min of 2 hours until its our turn.

see the queue

RM5. bought it for sis

Click to enlarge! must read very funny

rm2 for 2 turns of slides.

bumped into my junior!

with my old fren.

more camwhore pics

sis pointing to my boobie. = =

super exhausted. initially me n my old frenz planned to catch a movie in jusco but then all movie tickets for the day has sold out even it's only 2pm. O.0

later in the noon, Wil join me n sis for lunch at sushi king.
big sumomo

I Nuovi Celebrity Series - Week Three: Bronze Goddess

2009-07-21T22:07:00.000-07:00

it's the final week! time really flies. i've definitely learned alot from all her vids.

the devastator has balls!

2009-07-15T11:38:00.001-07:00

remember the scene in Transformer 2 where the devastator appears with two of his metal balls ramming together? im going to show u one more time!

good day!

why cant i do what i like?

2009-07-13T09:49:00.000-07:00

i was damned few years ago for wanting to go to art stream. so i went against my will and chose science stream instead. nvm then if i love what im doing and im great at it. but just look, i got

-8E for add maths
-8E for chemistry
-7D for physics in SPM.

come on, do i look that smart to all of u? I KNEW IT that i'm not meant to be a science stream student. I KNEW that i'll messed up everything eventhough i got all As in science and maths for both UPSR and PMR.

so why am I listening to peoples who doesnt even know me or what i want? i know myself better.

so after my SPM, i went to work in Skin Food. It was really nice working in a cosmetic store. u get to learn different things everyday despite that u have crappy collegues, fussy customers and ugly fat bitch as ur boss. the greatest feeling arised upon me was satisfaction. not that oh-i've-hit-my-sales-target-again that kind of satisfaction. it's... beyond words describe. atleast i feel happy for what im doing. everyday i put on make up with different colors, and then admire my look in the mirror, checking websites for updates of makeup blogs, flip through product guide and absorb every beauty knowledge like a spongebob squarepants.

suddenly, the result of my SPM is out.

and by seeing what am i doing now, most of u could have probably guess what happened next.

i was FORCED to further my study EVENTHOUGH I GOT NO FUCKING CLUE OF WHAT COURSE TO CHOOSE FROM and where to do my diploma. i told these people what i need is time. but what i got is more pressures. ok so i do what u guys said and went to study at this money eyed college. i didnt even get to do research about the college. i haven even seen the college before registered.

im paying loads of money, wasting my time here for a worthless diploma paper that no one wants to look at it.

after a few sems, i got a CGPA around 2.5. now i kena blame pulak.

helo bastard?!! u were the one who forced me to do what i never liked just for ur selfishness so that 'we can be together'.

u think i never worked hard?

have you ever consider my feelings before u started saying things like "it's entirely ur problem for not looking for the lecturer if u don understand". u think my lectures give a fuck of me?

HELLO?!!!!!!

i'm not in secondary leh! my lectures doesnt spoon fed like ur teachers in secondary. and i DID went to the lecturers and asked them a few times, ending myself feeling stupid that i don't understand how accounts or freehand work even after their precise explanation.

u think thats easy for me?

think again.

no matter what, i'm going to finish this goddamn diploma until i graduated in 2010 Dec. i'll do my best despite how it's gonna end. one thing for sure, after my graduation, i'll make my own decision of where to go next. every decision will be solely base on my interest and not some retarded shallow comments of anyone. I'll do whatever i want.

U CANT FORCE ME, AGAIN.

including when i wanted to go for driving lessons.

no one is going to ruin my life this time.

COMMENTS OFF

random updates

2009-07-13T00:40:00.000-07:00

etude house is having sales! 40% discount for all accessories.

foundation sponge.

this one for rm1.50 plus only. damn cheap la can! the face shop was selling thrice of the price!

eyeshadow brush

cute ma? the stick is use to massage your under eyes area

for this one, u have to put one drop after u apply ur nail polish and it'll dry in 5mins.
after trying, i think it speed up the drying process a little. only the top part of the nail polish is dried after 5mins.

amc canteen day! i bet everyone's going! so how on earth am i going to skip this chance to meet all my old frens?!

anyway my sister is selling the coupons. rm30 for one book. do support this little girl a bit ya?

his

mine. love their muffins and juicy chicken!

and i bought my first ever mac product！i feel like a grown up now.

ingredient list. initially i wanted to buy the maybelline angelfit. but then... i dunno how i end up buying mac honestly =/

my old foundation. it's xiaxue's fav too.

gin and tonic for dinner. ended up having gastric.

I Nuovi Celebrity Series - Week Two: Smoked Siren

2009-07-13T00:22:00.000-07:00

so, week 2 competition is up!

and here i present to u my attempt.

i think it went horribly wrong. it doesnt looks like anything in the video.

i think i should blame it on the ugly faux eyelashes. both of the eyelashes i used both weeks is from Aery Jo and i really think it doesnt worth the price.

anyway the quality of the 120palette is kinda crappy too. it's too chalky and rough.
just look at that. ugh

current cravings

2009-07-12T09:25:00.002-07:00

green curry.......i want it so bad right now la! it's just sudden craving. i remember that my ex always brought me to the same place at the same day of the week and i ordered the same green curry with rice everytime. green curry is yummy. though i stil don't get it why it's in green. hahaha.
freaky eyes.

raw oyster!!!!! i had 10++ raw oysters in red box KL when i went for the model thingy, and i swear it's one of the best day in my life! my sister prefer it cooked with cheese. =/ i dunno, it kinda spoil the taste of an oyster. well thats just me. i dont eat raw oyster in penang, weird huh. i have it everytime i went back to Ipoh for holidays at a nearby restaurant. it's RM3 for one serve with lemon and tobasco sauce.

i love lei cha. 雷茶 in chinese i guess. i feel healthy everytime i had it.

not all lotus soup i like one hor especially those serve together with the chicken rice that u can get outside. my mom make the best lotus soup ok! she always use pork rib and it lightly sweetens the soup. i love it when the top of the soup is covered with fats n oil. yum. drink soup must gao gao one. if not no point la cause it won't feel anything in ur mouth.

need i say more?!! it's my favourite dish on earth! sambal prawn petai(picture shown is sotong).

i dunno, the massage this afternoon suddenly makes me think all these food. =/ and i just realized that i havent been eating well recently. imagine fried rice for almost everyday. damn. so glad that im going home this friday!!! i get to see my favourite person in the world!! words fail me to express how much im really looking forward for it!!

p/s:i feel like after having a heavy session of work out after the massage, i wonder is that normal. it aches quite bad at some area like my shoulder. i told her it hurts when she's doing that but then she told me 'no pain no game(gain)'. o.0

2009-07-12T00:41:00.000-07:00

aah.. just came back from thai body massage. damn syok la.

nostalgic

2009-07-07T06:56:00.000-07:00

I Nuovi Celebrity Series Contest: Spunk Funk Contest!

2009-07-06T03:53:00.000-07:00

and here's my attempt to create this smokey eyes!

and oh, here's the link for the competition!(click)

i hope i win! hahaha <3>

2009-07-04T20:22:00.000-07:00

okay so i received some comments about my blog today. people has been calling me blog more about college life. but if i begin to talk about my college, i'll cant help but starting to rant. so do u guys still want to hear that?

cheating

2009-07-03T22:55:00.001-07:00

this moring i told my bf that it's perfectly okay to cheat on me(actually i mean it by the time i said it). until i read mayzhee's blog. which she wrote about her story with her bf(ex bf now)...

Wee Lim and I have had our problems going back to before he left for Melbourne. We were doing just fine until I royally fucked up our relationship. If I say it here now, you probably wouldn’t get it because it seems like extremely simple things, but trust me, to fully understand anything I am saying here you would have to take the feelings you assume WL felt, and multiply it by ten. Then you’ll get the gravity of this situation.

I knew I’ve been a bad girlfriend and I knew I hurt him so much. It was so bad that when I put myself in his shoes and thought about how I made him feel, I had to yank myself out of his role because it was just too hurtful to bear. Looking at the stuff I did to him, over and over again, really you’d wish you could just put an end to the relationship yourself. The pain heaped onto myself, upon seeing the things that I did, was equally unbearable. I started to hate myself so much.

Once in SATC, Samantha had an actual love-based relationship with Smith, but finally one day she went and fucked Richard Wright at his party, which she attended with Smith. Smith knew about it. When she was done she came back downstairs and Smith was waiting right there for her there, and she actually REGRETTED fucking Richard Wright (for people who don’t know, Samantha NEVER regrets and she NEVER loves so this was special for her).

So anyway, when she saw Smith, she broke down and said, “I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I hate myself for doing this to you.”

That scene was so powerful, for me, because it epitomized exactly how I felt. That’s exactly how I felt. I didn’t know what was wrong with me at the time when I did all those horrible things, until now when it’s over and I am reflecting upon them. I hated myself so much for doing it to him. The way I felt about myself and what I did … I couldn’t decide whether this, or putting myself in his shoes, was worse.

It’s to the extent that when I found out he had cheated on me with another girl (a friend of ours to boot), the fact that he got pissed ass drunk with her and were all over each other in a friend’s house, and proceeded to spend the night together back in his house (according to him nothing further happened ie he didn’t fuck her. My reply was, does it matter?) and then her leaving his house at 7 in the morning, even when I found out about all this, and about the other (minor in comparison) infidelity incident that happened in Aloha bar a year back … I just couldn’t feel hurt for myself because when I did, I would compare my pain of knowing my boyfriend cheated on me with what I’ve put him through in the past, and, somehow, somefuckinghow, his cheating became justified in my head.

And that’s when I started to compensate like mad. I just wanted him to be happy, even at my expense. If cheating was what made him happy then, in the midst of all the pain I was causing him, then I came to terms with that. I was hurting him so bad that seeing him happy at my expense became acceptable, almost welcoming, to me.

the last paragraph hits me. and when i continue reading the rest of her entries.. it just feels completely awful.
first of all, the thought of my bf cheating of me hurts alot. imagining him with someone prettier than me in bed almost kills me, imagining him with someone uglier doesnt feels any good neither.
secondly, if he cheats and tell me i gave him the authority to cheats, how the fuck am i suppose to react?(now i regret for saying that just now!)

but then.. if a bf of 4years can cheated on her beautiful and smart gf, why cant mine?

i dont look like megan fox in any way, i dont have the boobs of 34D, and i'm certainly not good in _ _ _(fill in the blanks with whatever that comes into ur mind first.)

i love you bie, but i'm just not ready yet. it's not okay to cheat on me, but if u do, i think i'll forgive you. after all, i just wanna see u happy even if that's not with me.

but i hope there's another way that we can sort this matter out, any way but not cheating.

p/s: it doesnt necessary mean SEX or BED u filthy rotten mind. it can be BOT, FUN, RAP, VOW...etc
p/p/s: mayzhee is tougher that i'd thought! anyway i sincerly wish that she's doing fine now.

当初的友情=现在的敌人？

2009-07-01T11:36:00.000-07:00

和你一同笑过的人，你可能把他忘掉；但是和你一同哭过的人，你却永远不忘。

——纪伯伦

世界上，没有永远的敌人的。

为什么人与人之间的感情是那么的脆弱？

难道爱与恨真的只是一线之差吗？

友情不是一朝一夕的，既然一起经历了那么多难忘的日子，难道就要因为一些小误会而放弃对方？

真正的友情，是一株成长缓慢的植物。而现在经历着的，只是区区的小风暴。

珍贵难得的友情就要珍惜。

友谊也像花朵，好好地培养，可以开得心花怒放，可是一旦任性或者不幸从根本上破坏了友谊，这朵心上盛开的花，可以立刻萎颓凋谢。 ——大仲马
it's so fucking true. i hate the fact that it wilt so quickly.

it's sad, i know, watching 2 of my best friends who used to be best friends turing against each other.
i pray for the best to both of u.
hopefully it's not too long that 3 of us can hang out together like last time.

友谊的本质在于原谅他人的小错。 ——大卫·史多瑞

Friendship isn't how u forget, but how u forgive.
Not how u listen, but how u understand.
Not how u see, but how u feel.
Not how u let go, but how u hold on.

bear that in mind.

How To Prepare A Funori Soup

2009-06-26T00:57:00.000-07:00

海底燕窩～珊瑚草

with flash

So what exactly is this so called 'sea bird nest'?

自古以來，珊瑚草被當作不老長壽的秘方，是可以吃的化妝品。

日本人曾把盐草当作贡品献给中国皇帝，又因营养价值极高，胶质浓似燕窝，又称“海底燕窝”。珊瑚草生长于无污染的海域，由于族群产量有限，采收过程艰难，所以极为珍贵稀有。

來自純淨海中珊瑚草,含高鈣.高鐵.多種維生素,可幫助小朋友長高,預防骨骼疏鬆,且含有大量膠原蛋白質,可消除皺紋,排毒效果明顯,是女性補血,養顏美容的最佳聖品. 含高鈣,高鐵,高纖維,鎂,鉀(穩定心神,更年期最需要元素)

珊瑚草生長在紅潮地帶，它原生長於東南亞無汙染的海域，並於退潮時可見原水深２０公尺以下深岩壁縫中的天然草本，依其品種色澤不同可分為綠藻．紅藻及象牙珊瑚藻．因此台灣並不出產珊瑚草，但台灣產的海石花外形和珊瑚草有點類似。世界有出產珊瑚草的國家包括日本、紐、澳、印尼、菲律賓、夏威夷、越南等地，其中日本的珊瑚草已禁採.....所以市面販售宣稱的日本珊瑚草與事實是有出入的。

well for those people who doesnt read chinese, it's called Funori(jelly seaweed). It's rich in natural nutrients. apparently these natural nutrients are good for human body, especialy for skin care purpose. Some food expert even treat them as the most valuable item & call them as undersea bird nest. It's rich in enzyme nutrients,minerals,calcium, iron,multitude fibers & jelly form proteins.

my 3rd aunt says it has higher nutrients value compare to genuine bird nest. she says it's hard to find real bird nest nowadays. most of the company came out with fake bird nest which is made from plastic(eww!!) and it's super bad for health. eventhough it's real, it has undergo a process which when they clean the freshly picked bird nest, they use some sort of chemical to melt away those feathers/shits found in the bird nest.(the chemical is like bleaching agents. so u think they will purposely handpick those feathers n hairs for u?!) so u'll be eating the chemical together with the bird nest and Colouring & Preservative.

it taste a little like bird nest when it's cooked. my 3rd aunt recommend this to me and she gave me a little packet of dry funori to try.

i've tried it and it really does make my skin glowing with rosy tint. so i thought i might share it with u all today. =D

here i go. this is the tutorial of 'How To Prepare A Funori Soup'.

soak the dry funori in water for few hours. its size will increase(alot, like triple?) when it has absorbed the water.

then, put it on a plate and try to look for thin threads(as shown above) hiding everywhere in the funori. otherwise it'll affect the smoothness of the soup when it's done.

prepare this amount of this. i dont even know what its called.

and this as well.

i choose seedless ones because the seed will make ur body very hot if u cook with it.

put everything into few cups of hot boiling water.

wait until the water turns into this color.

and u 'filter' it.

then u can throw it, eat it.(just do whatever u wan with it.) i only need the essence.

clean n pure goodness of the .

get this ready.

and put it into the essence.

stir every 3mins to make the funori melt faster.

half an hour later..

it taste like....liquid jelly. hahah

put a few ciubs of 冰糖。damn my english sucks.

when the 冰糖has finally melted into the soup, it's ready to serve.

tada! (i know it looks ugly here with the ugly bowl and ugly newspaper behind. == but dont judge the book by its cover!)

it taste heavenly when it slides down ur throat.

serve it like this lo if u want to make it more appetizing.

Im one happy buyer!

2009-06-15T21:45:00.000-07:00

it's the english week in my college, they got this little event calls express ur love for english this morning.

look what's de prizes! cheap snacks and more paper/document holder==

well, just another expected boring event again. it's always suckish. it has never been cool, it's still not cool and unless they do somethin about it, it'll never be cool. even my secondary school holds better event than my college.

52.7kg? wow i gained weight again. bmi is 18.7, they called me to gain more weight and lose some more fats(2.9kg). == wtf does dat even means?

So my 120eyeshadows palette that i bought from here has arrived at 12pm sharp just now at my door!

'foo' lian way again, lol. it's foon, but i dunno why all online sellers always messed it up.

unboxing it

product name is eternal bliss.

nicely wrapped.

wait, is that a free gift? hmm..

yep, this must be it.

the back of the packaging.

Manly? lol funny name for a female cosmetic product.

the best condition ever! no broken eyeshadow. peace*

got the seller's namecard somemore!

free gift is an eyeshadow pencil. it's broken at the cap. but then u know the old law 'free things no demand!'. XD

just look at how clean it is. shiny surface somemore!

and what's most important is the seller's attitude. she gave me discount eventhough i'm so many days late for order after the promotion period, responsible(keep in touch very frequently with me about the product, quick service and she is very friendly!). thanks Iris if u're reading this!

this was the 88pallette i bought from blushberry.blogspot.com. not only did it arrived(after 1 month more from the date i ordered) in a terrible condition(4broken eyeshadow, came without the 2 eyeshadow tips as said and strong chemical smell!), but the seller also refuse to do any refund, replacement, or gimme more discount for another new palette. she has never offered me pos laju insurans or other company's delivery services in the first place. i've sent her a total of 3e-mails showing her my plight and try to negotiate for a better way to sort it out but she just dont reply. gahhh!!!!!!

i've spend 2hours to clean the whole damn thing. it's not easy okay as it's very pigmented. have to rubs the surface with makeup remover first and follows with lots of toner. i've put it under the fan for 5days and the chemical smell just wont wear off. ==

anyway! the good news is i sold it! for rm90 muahahah!!! if not.. i wont let go of the seller so easily!!

im going home for papa's day yipee!! actually it clashes with my classes as i have class on saturday and im too lazy to travel up and down.(i fucking hate the long hour bus ride) but then when i think about it...
my papa hasnt even complained a wee after 13 years of fetching to school and waiting me after school everyday.

most of my friends have to go to school by bus but me? i sleep until 30mins before my class starts and i don't have to wait for bus at all. even after my form5, he still fetch me everyday to my part time work at JJ.
and even sometimes, i call him to fetch me to and from school activities/shopping/hangouts/parties during his work hours. my papa as my driver, how cool is that?!

count the number that i've sat at a public bus before i started my life here, i can safely assure u that it's not more than 10.

i know nothing i do can ever repay him but i just hope he'll know that i care for him. alot.

power outage in the night is creepy! especially when u're alone.

2009-06-13T08:56:00.000-07:00

real candid picture.

same clothes, different hairstyle.

power outage 5mins ago. it lasted for 1 freaking hour long!!!!!!! anyway i just wanted to thank god it happened......because.. err.. it makes me realized that there're kids straving at Africa?????

nah.. didnt think so!! =p

i got pretty emotional just now. went to watch all my videos in my phone and guess what, i cried when i saw few videos of myself, singing, WITH MY LONG HAIR. my beatiful long shiny hair!!!!!! how come it even crossed my mind that to cut it? the thought of the time that it takes to grow back to the same length makes me SICK and HORRIBLE.

okay okay enough ranting about it already. imma go for a rebonding real soon.

graphic design assignment.. create a poster that entitles love, hate, smile.. my piece or artwork is inspired by this picture above. its title is love, obviously.

actually i think i copied everything. but then, i stil do it on my own one ok! i know it's ugly. =/ u can say it's a rush work. so don't blame me.

nothing better to do than uploading bunch of old photos

2009-06-04T23:49:00.000-07:00

butter sauce salmon <3

old pitures of my zh'ng phone

my palette arrived in a terrible condition. and without the brush as the seller mentioned!!

look closer n tel me wad do u see. =)

u do the math. imagine how many manicure can i do with that money.. sakit!

my poor little broken nail

two tiny injection holes and swollen finger.

Britains got alot of talent.

2009-06-02T02:54:00.000-07:00

diversity deserves to won britain's got talent 2009!!

i fell in love with them ever since i saw their audition. especially de choreographer. XDD

my other favourite contestents were susan boyle, good evans, 2 grand, and flawless.

GOOD EVANS!!! im so sad that they didnt make it thru the finals.

i hate pier for buzzing!! honestly, their audition is better than semi final. i heard that Elliot's voice cracked and they have to sing Breaking Free instead. im quite disappointed with Elliot mediorce performance. =( but it was nice, just not that great. =/ and don u just love olivia and georgia?? they're so freaking cute n adorable!

watch their audition now then u'll understand my disappointment.

susan susan.. she sang i dreamed a dream for both audition and final. her semi final performance was as great as all of her performance too. it got me teary everytime i listened to it. i just.. it's just... i mean... it's amazingly fantastic!! abo how do u think she gets millions of views in youtube? and i truly love her pleasant and humble personality. i hope she can performs to the Queen but im happy that she finish it as 2nd place after Diversity. =)

2 grands. omg can u belive that sally is only 12?!!!!!! her vocal is very powerful for her age. rare and raw talent. she should work for disney cartoons. they sang 'A Whole New World' which is one of my fav duet song for audition n final. semi final.. is it 'Somewhere Out There'? im not sure. aww.. such a sweet couple of grandfather n granddaughter. i love them, i really do.

anyway, all of their videos i found in youtube has been embedding disabled.
so please click here to watch their audition, semi final, and final.

Flawless is flawless! especially their final performance, very entertaining. but i stil prefer Diversity to compare. it's not like i have anything against blacks.. Diversity has a few blacks too. but i must admit their dance movement are better than Diversity.

here's their semi final performance.

entertaining right?

i think they're better than Sugarfree, another dance group, only it's all girls.

and now to the winner!

the team is made up from 11guys- 3 sets of brothers n 4 friends who aged between 12–25. some of the guys are still at school or studying at university but some of the older members have normal 9–5 jobs, including an IT systems engineer, A bathroom installer and tele sales. Dancing is what brought them together.

i love, I LOVE every performace from them. it's so creative, so funny, and there's alot of effort in it. there's a surprise from them every week. like in the final, there were Transformer, Superman, and Brits got talent in their dance act. i think the buzz thingy was brilliant--Terry pretends to sing and 3 'judges' hit the buzz! LOL!!

audition is great too. there were army, lift and racing.

semi final has a very funny story. lol. just watch it.

ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANT.

And now, what's a reality show without some badass? watch how Singing Souls argue with Simon for their passion, in a bad way.

damn she is rude and unreasonable. == this teach me never judge the book by the cover. and no, her hair doesn looks like mine ok!

and here's the best one. Just watch it.

lol poor girl!

By the way, did u noticed how Amanda looked so hot in all of the videos? drools*

haircut

2009-06-01T02:51:00.000-07:00

before the haircut-

looking ugly without photoshop n make up.

geez. why would i even thought of cutting it? it has been with me for 2years already.

i don think u're ready to see it.

god.

initially, i asked for a chin-length bob. in case if u dunno, go search up in google. or type katie holmes into it.

something like this la ok.

it's an insult to me

2009-05-27T12:34:00.000-07:00

if u're going to get me a fake LV/Coach/Prada/Versace/Donna Sharp handbag, then i'll be cursing u to die everytime i see u.

i dont see the point of carrying a counterfeit product on my shoulder around.

if people's going to ask u if it's genuine, what's ur perfect answer would be? admit it's a fake one or lie blindly? no matter what the answer would be, it'll be a disgrace.

if cannot afford then dun buy la.

i wont be called cheap if i don own a LV. but everyone will be calling me cheap if they found out that im taking a replica handbag.

I broke my nail! and i spent a freaking of rm230 to make it worse! well kind off..

2009-05-26T11:13:00.001-07:00

arrrrrrghh!! im watchin little nyonya at the moment while updating.

die la I dis time.. my photoshop homework hasnt done yet even after 4weeks from the deadline. actually i've passed up to my lecturer, but he rejected it since it's a JPEG file---> he wants it in PSD format== dat means i have to redo all over again cause i did not saved anythin except the JPEG and closed it like wtf?!!!!!!!! (i've used to saving my photoshopped pictures as JPEG, cant blame anythin)

and i hasnt update about i wanna be a model semi final round that i promised omg i feel so bad. =/

my photos cant be uploaded f0r the moment so yea, please wait for a bit longer. byexx

most romantic night

2009-05-16T19:44:00.000-07:00

happy day

2009-05-14T01:19:00.000-07:00

For those who says i cant afford anything not locally or china made, well, FUCK U!

muahahaha i just bought a brand new nice smelling leather guess bag yesterday! yep it's in silver. and my coastalscents pallete has just arrived also on the same day! i can do my own makeup tutorial soon! i have so many ideas that i cant wait to share!

going for a new hair do next week! either im cutting it til very short or getting extensions. hmm..

thats all im off for cq n luna weeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~

the fattest asshole, here's another one to u =p

2009-05-11T12:03:00.000-07:00

It's 3am now and i still feel like flaming that sohai. he's a fucking fucked up fame ho. last time, he uses the names of his gangster frenz to scares people. he always talks about how great is them that they kill peoples around for free and cock n bull story which nobody cares. well they may be people who believes u, anyone but me. u wake la idiot. today what century already? very creative i give u, but it's not true. =)

now he's got his dad who's a Dato who came back after 10 good old years of abadoning him.

hey loser, i thought u hated ur dad so fucking much? since when u both became good friends? remember all those names u called ur dad? like the worst animal u've seen? Or the fattest dog king in the universe? walao eh. u really.. can do anything for money and fame.

among my friends, the richer they are, they more humble they are.

not like u who show off all the time bragging about how u got ur house la car la n how much 'muscles'(fats) u've got== ugh

hao xin, u rich lan ar? u haven seen rich people only. stop acting like u're the only rich person in the world. dun talk far far la, even michelle(remember her?) is richer than u lo. just compare the cars u both own, she has an Estima. u???????????????????????????

and that's not even ur money u're spending. u brag wad lan?

And talking about DATOs.. count the number of friends of mine that their fathers are Dato.. 5??? lol dun think im lulu la.

The game just begins here. come la call lawyer come u think i care ar? u know just charge me for defamations. =) but just remember one thing before u do, don't go embarrass urself like dat lor. wink*

i dare u, come and kill me if u can and then show my beautiful body to my parents. dun say im not aware of who im messing with. cause honestly, i dun giv a fuck who r u. i seriously DON'T.

really wan to see ur sohai face when u wee in ur pants just like now. Xp

this is for u for bullying everyone in ur life just because u think u can. u know wad u did to who and when and where. they might afraid of u, but i dont. i already said, the game has just started.

and and and.. dun just attack me back by words oh. i wont believe them cause everyone can tell lies. u know, just like what u did to..erm wengkin in his blog? woohoo! i wanna see some actions.

omg im addicted to verbal attack. ^.^

DAVID WONG KHAI HSIANG THIS IS FOR U

2009-05-11T06:38:00.001-07:00

hi. i've got a few words for u.(did i say i wanna hear that?)

1st is fuck u bitch.(well, fuck u right back then! but then, no. i dun think i wanna fuck u XD)

2nd is, i'm sorry ur life partner is so poor and miserable and 3rd, oh yea, everytime i said i love u,i lied. it was just to get in ur pants. (oh u're talking about william? we broke up! im so sorry that u don have a family like all of us do, and u're fat and ugly as hell. and ur fat body is causing u so much sickness. realize la sohai. u're fat fat FAT FAT FAT!!!)

erm, yea. I AM a playboy. So much money, no place to spend. Where else? Women la..(as if there're women that are willing to fuck u.)

well, erm if before this empty skull of urs and that poor pityful brain of ur guy's cant analyse this, why not catch this word k? very simple only.. yeap, money is everything and erm, im sorry u lo cant afford anythin that's not malaysian or chinese made k? no worries and have a nice day.(what i wanted to say to u is, open ur eyes u stupid motherfucker. u think i really care how much u worth? do u even want me to compare u to Bill Gates? and yea, looks is everything. u cant hate us just because we're alot good looking than u, can u?!)

P.S: i've just finally had enough with ur threatical and pityful act of glamour when it's all a bigshow of embarrassment. i guess i know, all girls ARE gold digger. JUST LIKE U.(u called fashions n trends as embarrassment? r u stupid or what?! U'RE THE BIGGEST EMBARRASSMENT TO UR MOM. that's embarrassment.)

this will be my final goodbye to u n good luck to with that jealous best fren of urs. tata(unfortunately, this is and WILL NOT BE THE END OF IT)

im not like any weak woman. i wont let u go overboard. sorry for messing with me. dun tel me stories about ur lan jiao gangster frenz and bullshits la! so brave come whack the hell out of me la, stupid!!!!!!!! u think i scared ar? lol. well maybe that will happens, but only in ur dream.

helo dickhead? what i said in the previous post is absolutely right. u're too pathetic to face the truth. thats y u're so angered.

dulan

2009-05-07T10:21:00.000-07:00

nerd ma?

if u wanna die, just die already ok? y continue to be such a pain in the ass?

look at ur blog, exactly how many times u said that u were gonna die n it didnt happened in the end?

the thing truth is, u're not dying, u're craving for attention. FULLSTOP.

u're exagerrating about ur sickness, which in my opinion, it's just same as catching a flu.

trust me, u'll not die. if u're going to write about how miserable u are, don't cal me to read ur blog ever again. why? cause all the fake stories doesnt even worth my time.

there's something that's wrong with ur mind. cause a normal person will never pester a taken girl. don't tell me u did everything for the love of ur life lor. i'll not believe it even if u gimme gucci. XD

u did it for pride. GO ON, deny as much as u want. here a quote from william about u by the way, "so rich also no girl wants, confirm got problem." have some food for thought about it.

another thing that times my dulan to the max is talking about how deeply u're still in love with sue ean. lol. u sure boh?

IT"S PURE BULLSHIT. OR PIGSHIT IF U PREFER.

u don even respect her. same to all the girls in ur life.

not in, and not sad.

2009-04-30T04:39:00.000-07:00

Fuck.. i've totally abadoned my blog. because i was so busy! i don't even sleep enough nowadays. im trying to catch up with the old life i have all along since i didnt get into the top 16. =)

what a tough competition i must say. i shall update again when im free.

and happy labour day everyone!

Is it just a dream?

2009-04-23T03:48:00.000-07:00

Time surely flies.. It's been almost a week since my last audition. Which means the second audition is getting nearer. I've been given one week time to improve myself, adn honestly speaking, that's not even enough time to grow my fingernails. But i've done all i can. During this week, i had alot of thinking about the outcome of this saturday. There are two possiblities---whether i get it, or not.If I get it, im one step closer towards my dream. That means i've make it to the top 24. If i don't... I don't even know what i'm going to do about it. I'll just have to come back and continue what i've been doing.

Seriously, i don't have any confidence at all.. How pathetic, but that's the truth. During my last audition, everyone there is so freaking tall and beautiful. I feel like sand beside a diamond when i'm standing with them. I can't even think of being compared with them during next audition. But no matter how, i'll still try my best. this has been my dream for so long, i'll not just throw it away---this is my only only chance in life.

Tomorrow, i'll be heading to KL Mines for the upcoming audition on Saturday morning. Lets just pray for the best for me on behalf of my dream ya?

It's so close enough for me to taste... But i just can't touch.

I Wanna Be A Model first round of audition(unforgetable experience) ;D

2009-04-18T20:16:00.000-07:00

So as u may already know, i went to gurney for the 'I Wanna Be A Model Season 3' audition yesterday and i made it to the top 100. XD So i'll be sharing my experience here today..

I woke up at 10 and reached gurney at 11 something. I go registered myself, only to found out that i didn't bring the half close-up and full body photos of mine that they required. cilaka.
i was so panicked and i quickly went to snap on the spot. i was pretty upset actually because i cant photoshop them(i have no confident at all with my un-photoshopped pictures).

BUT THIS TWO PICTURES HERE SAVED ME I MUST SAY.

continue reading to find out why. ;)

after registration, i went to queue for about 2hours until it was my turn. i was really really nervous that i can hardly breath! but everyone told me to stay calm and be as confident as i can when im on the stage.

we were given instructions on what to say and how to walk before we get to perform on stage.
time flies and before i knew it, it was my turn to go up.

ta-da! my show time!
unfortunately, i almost fell on my 3rd step on stage. =.=

throughout the catwalk, i was trembling like a leaf in the rain, my body wouldn't stop sweating and my heart almost jump off from my chest.

after the walk, i was interview by one of the judges. i guess he was from last season. my fren told me he's a famous fashion stylist in our country.

the first thing he said to me was "who chose that outfit for u?" i said it's my best fren n then he said my best fren treated my very badly- he hated that outfit(very much i swear). he gave me a second chance to change my look in 20mins.

and then i came back at this.

he wasn't pleased at all when he saw that and dismissed them at something ah lian ah hua would wear. i was stunned. =.= but still, he gave me a chance to go to the next round. overall it was quite funny throughout the interview. XP

im gonna make it short here.

good things he said about me:

that im photogenic! XP so happy la! my facial expression is quite photogenic, he said. in fact, the reason he has given so many chances is because of he saw the two photos i sumitted! muahahaha!! people(frenz or strangers) always said that im photogenic, just that i never believed them.

i have potential.

although im not very tall, my legs is longer than my body.

bad comments:

my catwalk sucks, apparently he said i got no individual style when i walk and im like floating in the space.

i have no fashion/artistic sense. i knew i've disappointed him alot because of my outfits. he's very straight to the point when he makes comment about u.

and the advice he gave me is read more fashion magazines n be more concerned about the latest trend.

and omg im so happy when he said that i have potential! XDDDDDDD *head up in the sky liao* i never heard him saying that to another person yesterday! omg im so proud.

i got it!! thanks for the chance and i promise i'll improve myself on the next round!

my number 1 supporter!

the one that i forced to accompany me for the audition since jia jia n miao fei couldn't make it there. hehe. thx ya!

p/s: yen jie jie(my fashionable cousin sis who was a model years ago) has just promised to help me next week when im in kl for the next round of audtion held next week!!

p/p/s: this audition has totally build my confident about my looks and for the photos u see here, i swear i never did one bit of touch up with photoshop. =p

Im in!

2009-04-18T01:45:00.000-07:00

updates when im free! xoxo

my first pair of contact lense!

2009-04-17T00:27:00.000-07:00

bought it for rm22. free postage. hehe

haven try it, im too scared to put it on my cornea.
my fren told me to buy the brown one coz black one looks fake.

anyway,

Im going to that damn audition tomorrow
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alone...

To My Sister

2009-04-09T20:36:00.000-07:00

Please Always Know That I Love You More Than Anything Else In The World.

xiao sumomoji is what i call her nowdays. Because it's cute!

It all started when one day she's registering an account for some online game and like always, they require a secret question and a personal answer for easy verification if password lost.
Guess what she chose?

What's my favourite pet?

Her answer--sumomo.

I was curios and so i wanted to google. she refused to let me google because she feel embarrassed but in the end, i did it also. Hahahax.

Guess what's a sumomo?
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She came across with this little creature from some anime cds that my bf borrows her.

p/s: apparently this somomo is a PDA that speaks, if they sell it here, i'll be the first to buy!

SWEETNESS MAXX!!!

my baby sister is still a kid!

Roxy bags-my new obsession

2009-04-09T20:24:00.000-07:00

Twisted Lane Handbag

What do u think about this? i like this one.. it comes with a silver colour to choose.

i like both!

Party Starter Handbag

very cute.. i might get this one but i have to see it in real first. quite cheap, RM100++

Long Days Handbag

my fav of all!

this is MeiFong's handbag that i saw the other day.. my love affair with Roxy has started since then. u can say it's a love at first sight.

gorgeous! hers is in black, so i might get the stone one. i dunno.

teehee

being sarcastic is not mean!

2009-04-09T07:44:00.000-07:00

Some people... they just don't understand something..

People always mistake me as someone who's mean/bitchy/cruel/arrogant when it comes to words.

here's an example of my sarcasm. when i saw my bf with an ugly haircut, i'll go 'wah lan lieh! u look like steven lim lo!/wtf i wanna slap ur stupid hairsylist, it's DISGRACEFUL!!!!!!!!!!' *faking a puke*

anyway i think it's funny. insults from me are always funny. *winks shamelessly*

so what i actually mean here is that i really hate ur haircut n i really really want u to know so that u won't repeat it!

no baby, it's not like...err.. ok so maybe yes, i mean to hurt u but so bloody what?!

if i dun exaggerate a little, wil u change? being hurt by ur own gf that cares, or critics by other ppl, u choose urself.

another one, it happens when one day, a not so close fren of mine is willing to help me on my Maths. she puts in her efforts and failed. in my heart, i dun blame her at all. but i say something like 'thought u very geng one, cehh.. disappoint me only! next time dun give me hope la wei!' lol jokingly.

it maybe slips out from my mouth unconsiously, or maybe it's something that i intended to say. it doesn't make a different for whatever reason it may be.

why? because it was a JOKE, an obvious joke, with insults of coz. but it's stil a joke.

and nobody takes joke seriously. and i know i overeacted, but it's just too me. i cant change it.

this is another conversation,

me: gerald butler is soooo hot!!
a haiso: why are u telling me that?
*my mind couldnt think of a respond. because the whole point im telling him is i wanted him to know i think gerry is hot and i adore him, nothing more. but im lazy to explain it to him. so this is what i said below*
me: to piss u off.
a haiso: y?
me:nothing
a haiso: tell me..y?
me:to make u jealous
a haiso:y?
me:because i think he's hot! *drools*
a haiso:y?
*if someone keeps prestering u like that over nothing, wil u stil reply him nicely ar?'
me:because u're not.
*it's the truth anyway! it's ur fault to irritate me!*
a haiso:wait...thats an insult right?
me:yes
a haiso:y do u say that to me?
me:to insult u to make u feel bad
a haiso:im mad at u, i feel very offended. couldn't u be just more humble? if u'd be a little down to earth, u'd go a long way.
*i couldnt be bothered to pick a fight back then*
me:ohhh okay... im sorry then.

seriously? it's ur problem to feel so insecure.
if u're fat, go on a proper diet, not brag about how much muscles u've gained in gym, because it doesn't looks like muscles to me! muscles lumpy one meh?!
and in which way am i not being humble here? i can be fucking mean, like this---err.. maybe not. =.=
i'm being sarcastic, unintentionally, that doesn't mean i'm mean. and u're the one who pushed my button at first to get me riled up. so DONT BLAME ME IF I HURT U.

SO to everyone,

i'm truly sorry if u can't reach my mind, because everyone is different. people speak differently. u should accept the fact that not everyone is u and dun take it personally.

i'm sorry if i've offended anyone in the past, because i don't mean what i say sometimes.

so this post is to conclude to u that don take what i say so seriously, for more misunderstanding's sake!

but if after reading my post, if u feel like it irritates u even more because of for whatever reason( i dun wanna know), GO FUCK YOURSELF!! it's my communicating style afterall.

lol it's kinda irony that i'm a mass comm student.