YOU SEE

i am really reaaaally sorry that i cant be the girl of ur dream. well maybe i am but only in ur worst nightmares. =x

i lost my temper today. again. but have u ever taken into considerations of the factors WHY i did? i'll give u a clue.
what do i hate most in the world??


i dont expect u to know why, because u dont understand me. yes! you dont. everytime before u make any decision, i just cross my fingers and pray that u'll stand in my feet and think for me. but my prayers evaporated everytime when u started to go on of ur own selfish beliefs.

i do admit im a nice girl *buay paisehnye* but i get out of control everytime when someone pulls that trigger of me.

do u still remember how vulnerable and weak when u just knew me? maybe that's probally why u feel in love with me and i've just proven another myth of the century, that ALL MEN LIKE WEAK WOMEN.
but then, as time goes by, i've been polish by everyday's obstacle and hve turned into someone who knows to defend myself, someone who will stand firm on her beliefs no matter what, and someone who will fight back when she is being threaten.

ISN'T THAT A GOOD THING?

that im independent by myself, which u have always wanted me to become all these while? if u're not going to protect me anymore, i will do it by myself.
and what is it exactly that u're still not satisfy in me? trust me, i've been trying really really hard to surpress my anger and temper because of u. i just want u to have a better girlfriend but it seems that my efforts are futile.


i know u're avoiding me after all that i've done, but if someday, SOMEDAY where u find urself to miss me like last time, remember one thing, i didn't walk away, u left me.